poetry.

2007-01-07T17:12:00.000+08:00

JERKS AND SNOBS. why do they even exist?

2006-12-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

P/W THINGY HAS BEEN RE-INSTALLED.

to those who want to know, come and ask me PERSONALLY. dont go around asking from my friends.
and to those who can crack them, KEEP IT TO YOURSELF BAYBEHS.
and if those who want to know, but dont come to me, but to you guys instead, then, still, KEEP IT TO YOURSELVES BAYBEHS.

thankyou! ((:

loves, jann.

2006-10-06T16:18:00.000+08:00

im sorry, but im sick and tired of everything. do you think i like doing this? do you think i enjoy being in the same situation over and over again? NO. thats it. ive had it. to hell with those promises. im done. fullstop.

2006-09-23T11:34:00.000+08:00

i dont know if im about to have the biggest regret ever.

If I Could.

2006-09-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

if there was something, anything i could do, i would
to turn back the time, and go back
to that memorable and unforgettable past
i`ve been dwelling on my whole life, and wanting every bit of it back
if there was a way i could bring back the past
where so many smiles and laughter were present
no complications and nothing else mattered
and have the whole you back in my life then i would

what happened to all those times we`ve all been together?
what happened to every bit of happiness we shared?
would there be any chance that those times would return
no matter how thin the ray of hope is?
would there ever be that us again?
would we stare up to the stars?
would there ever be that time again
where there`ll never be an end?

how about those jokes you used to crack
and the lame acts he put up?
and those afternoon talks we always had
where we would work things out?
how about the long walks we shared
and the times we sat and laughed?
so many things we went through
and now it`s all in the past?

where did all those times have gone?
and what have we become?
what did it all turn into?
when we know it`s all not done?
why have it all gone to waste
and left with sacred memories
that soon enough, it`ll all fade away
as the time passes by?

it was always us, we were never apart
i miss all the wonderful adventures we all had
we`re all in this together, in case you guys haven`t realised yet
it`s just; things will never be the same again.

2006-09-13T18:07:00.000+08:00

some people just can`t get over themselves. this is full of shite. seriously.

2006-08-30T23:15:00.000+08:00

Oceans apart
Day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice
On the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
I see you next to never
How can we stay forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted
All the time
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter and I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh can you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

wonder how we can survive
This romance, but in the end if I'm with you
I'll take take the chance

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you(I'll be, I'll be right right here, oh waiting on you)
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you..

happy fourteenth sweetie. i love you.
always have , always will.

2006-08-18T20:57:00.000+08:00

ok. i changed my p/w. want to know come and ask me. and the only people who knows , for now , is KAT` & luq. lols. ok dah. cherios ! ((:

and this is not myblog. it`s just my space. you know , diversify. ok crappe. bottomline , this is not where my posts are.

don`t forget to remember me

2006-08-10T21:09:00.000+08:00

this is the song jasmine tye sang in singapore idol yesterday . i think it`s nice . enjoy . cherios ! ((:

18 years had come and gone
For momma they flew by
But for me they drug on and on
We were loading up that Chevy
Both tryin' not to cry
Momma kept on talking
Putting off good-bye
Then she took my hand and said
Baby don't forget

Before you hit the highway
You better stop for gas
There's a 50 in the ashtray
In case you run short on cash
Here's a map and here's a bible
If you ever lose your way

Just one more thing before you leave
Don't forget to remember me

This downtown apartment sure makes me miss home
And those bills there on the counter
Keep tellin' me I'm on my own
And just like every
Sunday I called momma up last night
And even when it's not,
I tell her everything's alright
Before we hung up I said
Hey momma, don't forget
To tell my baby sister
I'll see her in the fall
And tell mee-maw that I miss her
Yeah, I should give her a call
And make sure you tell Daddy that I'm still his little girl
Yeah I still feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be
Don't forget to remember me

Tonight I find myself kneeling by the bed to pray
I haven't done this in a while
So I don't know what to say but
Lord I feel so small some times in this big ol' place
Yeah I know there are more important things, but D
on't forget to remember me
Don't forget to remember me

because you live

2006-08-05T17:51:00.000+08:00

cheris thought me to listen to this song. i think it`s uber nice. and meaningful , i guess. enjoy. (:

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back
Like a wake-up call

I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know, what I didn't know

[Chorus]
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's all right, I survived, I'm alive again
Cause of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use
If you're killing time

I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

( repeat chorus )

Because you live, I live

Because you live, there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me
Always

( repeat chorus )

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl (because you live)
My world has everything I need to survive
Because you live, I live, I live

Happy Thirteenth

2006-08-03T18:20:00.000+08:00

under the bright fireworks,
the clear cresent, shimmering stars,
between lines, on that screen,
"will you be mine?" those words spoke.
the night of many dreams, that was our special night.

halfway down that pathway,
in the middle of the wet streets, the rusty gates,
slippery grass, blinking traffic lights
"i love you," those words spoke.
the night of freedom, that was our special night.

chorus :
he took me by the hand, and held me tight
his arms around my waist, he`s breathing down my neck
unforgettable walks , the midnight silhouette ,
that meaningful kiss ;
`twas the start of something new, felt so right,
this is the story of a life we both had.

this walk we shared together
under the light drizzle , a full moon
the soft dim lights , the puddles
"where are we going?" those words spoke
the night of our love, it was our special night.

the many restless nights,
on the line, talks and laughters,
his voice, ever so sweet, so gentle
"sweet dreams," those words spoke
the night i`ll never forget , the night when dreams were made true.

( repeat chorus )

bridge :
always together , never apart
he was the one
who had won my heart
now , and forever.

`you took me by the hand , and held on tight
your arms around my waist , you`re breathing down my neck
unforgettable walks , the midnight silhouette
tha meaningful kiss ;
it`s the start of something new , felt so very right ....

this is the story of a life we both had .

*happy thirteeth darls. i love you.

- 30 JULY 2006 -

lifehouse - you and me

2006-07-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

chorus:
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

(repeat chorus)

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

(repeat chorus)

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

avril lavigne - losing grip

2006-07-29T23:42:00.000+08:00

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby?
right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say

I was left to cry there
Waiting outside there
Grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided

chorus
Why should I care?
Cause you weren't there
When I was scared
I was so alone
You, You need to listen
I'm starting to trip
I'm losing my grip
And I'm in this thing alone

Am I just some chick
you placed beside you
to take somebody's place?
When you turn aroundcan you recognize my face?
You used to love me
you used to hug me
but that wasn't the case
everything wasn't okay

repeat chorus

Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud
crying out loud
I'm crying out loud

Open your eyes
open up wide

Why should I care?
Cause you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone

Why should I care?
If you don't care then
I don't care
we're not going anywhere

Rihanna - Unfaithful

2006-07-14T12:39:00.000+08:00

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

Hes more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

chorus
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another day
A kiss up on my cheek
He's here reluctantly
As if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

Our Love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do thisAnymore (anymore)

I don't wanna be...A murderer (a murderer)

No no no no

Yeah yeah yeah

Happy Twelfth Aniversary

2006-07-01T13:25:00.000+08:00

my hopes are so high , your kiss might kill me
a kiss , which never fails to leave a mark
a mark , which never fails to explain how much you love me
and leaves me wondering , how i never found you before

how i could look through you and never realised
how great you are is beyond me
how grateful i am of what you have done for me
the love you built for us , and created
an us who could wish the stars away
and be together under the blue moon forever

you are the reason why there are smiles on my face
you are the one who makes my day
you blow me away with every move you make
you are who you are in every way
you take me the chronicles of love
and the greatest thing is to love , and be loved in return

i still remember the scent of your hair ,
on every strand plastered with hair clay ;
and the way you dressed each time
i`ll always remember the dim of the sof lights , the smell of the air
and the sound of the band playing that night

i still remember the gentleness in your voice ,
the promises we made , and the lame jokes you crack
i`ll always remember this walk we shared together
and the way you twirled me in the moonlight
with your hands in mine , and you kissed me like you meant it.

always and forever , know that i`ll always love you ; no matter what , no matter what happens.

-dedicated specially to suhair, my sweetie. now and always will be. i love you.

2006-04-16T14:45:00.000+08:00

thin are the night-skirts left behind
by daybreak hours that onward creep ,
and thin , alas ! the shred of sleep
that wavers with the spirit`s wind .
but in half-dreams that shift and roll
and still remember and forget .
my soul , this hour has drawn your soul
a little nearer yet.

our lives , most dear , are never near ,
our thoughts are never far apart ,
though all that draws us heart to heart
seems fainter now and now more clear.
tonight love claims his full control
and with desire and with regret
my soul this hour has drawn your soul
a little nearer yet.

is there a home where heavy earth
melts to bright air that breathes no pain ,
where water leaves no thirst again
and springing fire is love`s new birth?
if faith long bound to one true goal
mat there at length its hope beget ,
my soul that hour shall draw your soul
forever nearer yet.

(insomnia - book of love poems)

2006-02-25T14:02:00.000+08:00

i don`t want anything else from you
nothing else , nothing else
you can make me happy in more ways than one.
you can shower me with any gifts anytime you feel like it.
you can say all those things i want you to say to me.
you can whisper the words i so wanna hear.
you can be the sweetest a guy can ever be.
you can pamper me for as long as i want you to.
you can be that gentleman.
you can treat me like a real lady.
you can treat me any differently from the others.
you can care a lot for me.
you can be more than you already are.
you can quit your bad habits for me.
you can make me yours forever.
but deep inside my heart , i know
i know the pain and sorrows we both suffered.
i still suffer , but not as much.
deep within those words , there is a huge clog underneath.
a clog, full of confused thoughts.
a clog , with your mind still not made up
still unsure about ~~everything~~
still don`t know who you really want to be with now.
well , you gotta choose boy.
i`m confused. ridiculously confused.
i gave you my heart.
if that`s not good enough , then i`m not good enough.
i can`t have you , i can`t have your whole heart.
baby.
be there to solve this with me?

writer: jannahjohari

2006-02-20T14:56:00.000+08:00

dear friend ,
i don`t know what else to say to you
there`s nothing more i can do
dear friend ,
we`ve been through so much together
all the memories , been greater

as the time passed by you`ve changed
for the good or bad , it`s not the same
we`ve been drifting apart , right from the start
it`s true , i don`t know you

chorus
but i`ll remember all those times
all the laughter and pain , all the signs
all the fun and sorrows , when we were friends
together we`ve had , it all blends

dear friend ,
there are no more solutions at all
we`ll just have to see us fall
dear friend ,
deep down inside of you (deep within)
where is that genuine you?

as the time passed by you`ve changed
for the good or bad , it`s not the same
you`ve forgotten all the promises we had
you`ve turned us down , you`re worth forgetting now

repeat chorus

lyricist : jannahjohari

Back again

2006-02-19T15:47:00.000+08:00

i guess it`s happening again
it all seems to be the same
the feelings i thought were erased
have been existing still
it`s utterly confusing
which part of my head is worth listening
is it to feel or not to feel
the openings of the heart , is it for real ?

chorus
everywhere i go , there`ll be you
either here or there , it`s true
i can`t explain much , but it so happens
that i`m still in liking of you

i can`t speak , i can`t think
there`s so much happenings in a blink
all those memories , all the walks
it reminds me of our past
and yes , we did get to talk
the misunderstandings , misunderstandings
all the crying , fighting and rebelling
no more battles now , it`s all over

repeat chorus

repeat chorus

lyricist/composer: jannahjohari

were never reciprocated

2006-02-05T14:40:00.000+08:00

you had me all along
i thought i had you , but i was wrong
and now you`ve lost me for sure
you can`t do this to me any longer
any longer
i thought things were going alright
we had no arguments , no fight
i should have known it was coming
i should have known there would be something
and there it was , a third party
but all you could say was a simple sorry

chorus
i can`t believe what i saw
you knew that i was standing there
you saw me , but you didn`t care
could not do anything , deep inside it was hurt
it`s sad to know my feelings for you were never reciprocated.

you tell me you`re as busy , but you`re not
i can`t believe all those lies i bought
i kept on giving , you kept on taking
but all those things you said , you kept on faking
you said you`d ove me no matter what
well , hear this , KISS MY BUTT
you can`t keep doing this to me
i`m gonna make you see
i`ve done the most easiest thing to do -
i`ve left everything behind ; i`ve left you

repeat chorus

i`m glad we went our separate ways
just take back whatever`s yours
i`ve gained everything , it`s your loss
i`ve erased the memories you left me with
i am now finally free

lyricist/composer: jannahjohari

Our Goodbyes , Its Time

2006-01-27T11:55:00.000+08:00

i think my mind is made up now
it`s for the best for us somehow
it may cause our hearts to bleed
but it`s better this way indeed
they all want us to work things out
we both want things to be alright , no doubt
but i just don`t see what`s the point in it at all
we`ll just end up seeing this relationship fall

things were simply perfect the way there were before
so what caused it to be turned around?
my tears, till my eyes were sore
i can`t seem to do anything , i keep breaking down
it takes just one mistake
adn everthing changes so fast
why does my heart wish to break?
i thought we would actually last

i don`t know why it can never work between us
all we do is fght , make up , fight , make up and fight again
when will it be when we stop fighting after making up for the last time?
i just want this to end now please
how can there be happiness between the two?
if this keeps going on , no peace?
i know you love me , and i love you too
but can we work things out at the very least?

we are way too similar , you and i
i know how you feel , you don`t have to lie
i keep taking the blow all over again
but somehow , you will just do the same
we are way too perfect for each other , don`t you think so too?
so much as a companion , too much we have in common

but life seem so meaningless when it`s not with you
with void of worth and support
all these memories seem so new
what we have can never be bought
you can take my breath away , no matter what you do or say
and once again , i`m being sincere
i just can`t bear to stay wherever you are here
so let this be the last , our numbered goodbye
i`ll love you for eternity , till the day when i die.

Why ?

2006-01-16T15:19:00.000+08:00

what do i do , now it`s time ?
i keep telling myself tat it`s gonna be alright
can`t heal those wounds, in my mind
you keep breaking my heart and tearing me apart
can`t you see me crying a lot
and it`s all because of you
do you know of the hurt you`ve done
it`s all written in words upfront

chorus
why are you still standing there?
when i don`t need you here
why can`t i just just stop crying?
why?

there`s nothing else to do now
i`ve been hurt so many times , god i feel so down
why can`t i stop those memories ?
it keeps haunting my mind , and making me cry
i can`t keep taking all your lies
i`m always the vulnerable one it seems
you were there , but not all there
why do i still feel you ?

to chorus

bridge
you never trusted me at all , (not once)
i tried to make things work , (but you don`t care)..
now i`m done. i just don`t want to hurt anymore

to chorus

i can live my life , without you.

he Doesn't Know That She Knows What She's Not Supposed To Know.

2005-09-09T15:03:00.000+08:00

He Doesnt Know What She Knows.
Are the rumours true?
What they say 'bt him and her?
But how is it possible?
Especially between them?
She's never been so confused, so shocked 'bt anything before.
Is it realli true?
When they said that he loved her?
Ever since he didnt know when
He has bore feelings fer her.
And all those signs he showed
It never occurred to her.
That he would even think about it.
But how can this be?
OHMYGAWD how can this be?

Why cudnt he be frank with her?
After all they've been through.
Why must she find out now?
Didnt he mention before that it was impossible?
So...why her??
Its so wierd. So wrong. So IMPOSSIBLE.
She's with somebody else.
And she loves him so much.
Why now, why not before, why not say ANYTHING?
All these time he knew all along
He acted like nothing's going on,
No chemistry.
But indeed there was.

The sparkles in his eyes.
The meaningful songs he sang.
The incidents when he got close to her.
The times when he made her mad.
And when he cried and regretted as
She did not say a word.
It meant something.
But she never came around to realise it
Until now..

Why cudnt he just say anything?
She doesnt know how to act around him anymore.
She doesnt know what to say to him
She doesnt know how to look at him now.
Now look what he has done.
She still remembers the times when
they hung out a few times.
No matter what she said,
Let it be insults or compliments
He'll laugh at every single detail.
He wudnt mind if she took his phone
Or cap or mp3
Or even when she wud tug on his shirt or bag
Begging fer something from him.
He'll give in, in a way.
And when she took something away from him
He wud be desolated
And storm out of the place
Leaving her remorseful.

But how was she supposed to know?
These things he does meant something?
Its just a mixture of feelings.
He doesnt know what he's doing.
He's not even sure.
She knows he still loves HER.
So terribly much!
All she's asking from him
Is for him to come clean.

She has seen the best of him, the worst of him.
And now she's seen the sweetest of him.
He can tell her everything now.
She promises never to say anything.
And will react calmly.
Just dont leave her in anxiety.

When the time has arrived
For the both of them to be free
He'll never expect to know
That actualli, she loves him too.

jann.

I`m falling in love with you

2005-07-28T12:42:00.000+08:00

There are times when i see you
catching a glimpse at me
there are times when i see you looking at me
i don`t seem to know what to do
all i know is , my heart seems to be with you
i don`t know what would happen between us
you may think that i don`t care
but you don`t know there are times when i`m watching you
even closer and more than you think

chorus
i`m always thinking of you
i don`t know what to do
you`re making me lose my mind
you don`t know this but i
i`m falling in love with you
still don`t know what to do

i try to find you in the crowds
but just a few times
it`s so hard just to have you pass me by surprise
what can i do , now that you`re here
i`m as scared , anxious , to look into your eyes
everytime when you look at me , my heart starts to sink
when you try to talk to me you`d tumble with your words
when that happens , it`s pretty much crystal clear
maybe it`s time for the both of us to know

to chorus

without you ...
without you ...
i can`t live my life , this life without you

without you ..
without you ..

repeat chorus

lyricist/composer: jannahjohari